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30 August 2009 @ 06:59 pm
~What are you thinking
Do you know about us back then
Do you know I dumped your husband
Im not thinking bout him
But you married him
Do you know I made him leave
Do you know he begged to stay with me
He wasnt man enough for me~~~
Toni Braxton

I hate when females are threatened by another female for no apparent reason..
Immaturity peaks it seems as you enter your 20's
really grow up, people dont realize that if another female..really ANY other female could have your boyfriend...
unless your promised, engaged, or married....really...is anything set in stone? 
no, dating someone does not mean that you will be long term..
Its a practice run to see if the initial attraction they feel could be anything more...
That attraction can be shifted from one to the next..
So really, what are you mad about?
Why do you feel threatened?
If your relationship is strong, why worry about other females?
If its not strong and that's why you are worried then maybe you should work on your relationship and stop
thinking about other females....

grow up ladies and realize that
men are dogs
learn it, live it, love it

move on

27 August 2009 @ 12:29 pm
~~I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go
~~~ Stacie Orrico

Why do I constantly feel like there is something missing with my life...
Most people when they feel like something is missing with their life they look towards their marital
But I feel like this is not about any man.. This is something so much more...
I blame society and weak men and weak females who make it seem like you need a relationship to feel happy
but that is not the case.

I need something of some substance... something like friends that i can hang out with who "get" me and ALL of my flaws..that's worth more to me than a relationship...

Over the past three years i have had friends come and go. Many i just stopped talking to some frustration built up and argument that was stupid and cant even remember why just erupted.

These last few friends that i let go where because they were leading me into a place where i knew that i had no business going.

am a believer in God...and they were not...usually that is not a problem..when you respect each other...but someone went to far..three someones went to far...

I have not spoken to them since that day...
people do not understand that your beliefs are what get you through the day...and for someone to tell you that
you are wrong...

some things can not be forgiven and must move on...

are there such things are forever friends anymore? 
where did i go wrong with choosing friends? 
I feel like i could be so much more happier if certain things never came about

Friends i actually trusted i didn't lose....
As i get older i have learned to forgive and forget.... certain forgivable things..
But i wonder if others can as well

Current Music: Palladio
25 August 2009 @ 03:52 pm
Drama Drama Drama...

females always say they don't like drama but then those same people need to explain to me why they have drama that envelops their entire lives? 

I dropped friends over the summer...Girls i used to spend all my time with were fake and don't care about anyone's feelings. They use you until you have nothing left to give....

And then call themselves your friends...
If thats a friend....i would rather not be apart of that

I wonder if when someone has been plastic for so long i wonder if they know they are artificial or do they think that they are real? 

I wonder about peoples thought process when they do the things they do..mostly we know that they are just thinking of themselves...and trying to get the most from people to benefit themselves...but you would think this would get old for people

dont you think that people would get tired of being fake? that they would like to have genuine relationships with people....

Newsflash....they world does not revolve around you and your "man" issues....
or whatever else you cry about on a daily basis...
24 August 2009 @ 01:22 pm
                                                I had my first lost baby nightmare the other night. It was too real and it scared me to bits. I dreamed that i delivered way too early and my son was so small. He fit into the palm of my hand. then the worst happened, I could not find him for two whole days and he couldnt eat or anything...When i finally found him i saw that his feet and hands did not grow all the way through. he was not really breathing because he was almost starved so i quickly fed him and he woke up and smiled at me. I felt horrible. He gained a few pounds but even still he was too small.

It felt so real that i had to check to make sure that i was still pregnant...


I worry for my son...